A new job.

I have been a stripper for four days now. I have worked two nights and danced fully nude in front of an indeterminate number of strange men. I'm nineteen years old, relatively attractive and somewhat on the intelligent side. Maybe, like the man told me last night in between telling me how much he hated strip clubs and how many times he had been stabbed, I am worth more than this. But the way I see it, it's because I'm smart that I am doing the job I am doing. I'm a University student and lap dancing not only encompass many of the things I love in life, like high heels, dancing, attention and looking pretty, it also pays very well. So the fact that I am studying for a degree, have a decent figure and a face that I don't hate shouldn't mean that stripping isn't for me, in fact, quite the opposite.

I guess I always knew that I wanted to be a stripper. I'm pretty sure that I have a diary entry from when I was about fourteen that says that this was my role in life. In more recent years I have become more attracted to the idea of burlesque, but I am sure I will get to that at some point. I have always been a performer; attention is something I thrive upon. I live off compliments and the idea of being around so many people who are attracted to me is a dream for me.

I also love to get dressed up, to do my hair and makeup. I have never had a terrible extensive makeup collection; I use eye shadow that I received for a birthday present many years ago as blusher. My lipsticks were mixed by me from old, cheap lipsticks that were not the right colour for me. I don't own foundation and can honestly say I don't know how to use it. Nobody ever taught me how to put makeup on, but this doesn't stop me loving it. On an everyday basis, I don't generally wear a large amount of it because I am lazy, but I love an excuse to pretty myself up. I bought false eyelashes especially for my first day. I chose my favourite ones: Nicola's ones for the Eylure Girls Aloud range. I think that they are beautiful and elegant; just because I take my clothes off for money doesn't mean that I can't be glamorous or lady-like.

High heels are a true love of mine. I have always had a real weakness for shoes and heels are just wonderful.  The fact that I not only can, but have to work in heels is like a blessing to me.

So I honestly love my new job. There are more reasons, but I will not go into them all right now. You can think what you like about lap dancers and I can't say that I won't be hurt by any insults that you may choose to throw my way, but I don't believe that I am what you would think I would be, nor do I see myself as a stereotype. I am a free thinking, clever individual who just happens to dance in front of strangers with no clothes on for money.